The First Time I Turned 20 directed by Lorraine Levy, France, 2004, 93
minutes, 35mm, French with subtitles
By Donald H. Harrison
There is one thing that Hannah Goldman (Marilou Berry) does not have that the
members of the high school Jazz Band do. A penis.
And although one usually does not play a double bass with such an appendage,
that was enough for the boys not to want her in the award-winning, touring jazz
band. Thus begins a battle-of-the-sexes story in which the fight is
completely unfair. Hannah has tremendous talent, keen wit, and a
stick-to-itiveness—and how, after all, can a penis, or even four of
them, prevail over attributes such as these?
Hannah, 16, supposes that had she been beautiful, instead of being overweight
and far less chic than her two sisters, that the boys would have accepted her
immediately, and perhaps even have competed with each other for her smile.
Her family reasons with her that if she wants to feel better about herself, she
should slim down. Hannah responds with an unfortunately too true
observation that first she has to feel better about herself, and only then she
can slim down!
But she does not wallow in self-pity over her weight; instead
she spends long hours alone, honing her musical skill, excelling instead of
conforming. Thus the movie is a French affirmation of the cliché that
"nerds" often grow up to become the most interesting people—a la Bill
Gates—whereas the conformists in high school become part of the
undifferentiated masses as adults.
To discourage Hannah, the boys try various weapons—sexual harassment,
anti-Semitism, on-stage humiliation—but although they succeed in hurting her
feelings, they only strengthen, rather than weaken, her resolve. Admiring her
spirit, the walls of the trumpet player begin to crumble (O Joshua!), producing
some friction in the male ranks.
There were two moments in the film I particularly enjoyed. After her audition,
Hannah rushes to the bathroom to attend to her jittery stomach. "Do
you need the nurse?" she is asked. "No, the morgue, to save
time," is her riposte.
The other was a tender moment among Hannah and her sisters. One who is
particularly beautiful confesses that she actually envies Hannah. Yes, the
sister knows she has good looks, but says Hannah also could obtain beauty, just
by determining that is what she really wants.. On the other hand, how
could the sister ever make herself intelligent?
Yeah, that's right, you think, but then, wait a minute!
Anybody who makes such a perceptive comment must already be intelligent. Hmmm.
Are you wondering about the title of film? Sorry. It's only
explained at the end.
The First Time I Turned 20 will be
presented twice during the 16th Annual San Diego Jewish Film Festival: at 6:15
p.m., Saturday, February 18, at the Poway UltraStar, and at 7 p.m., Sunday,
February 19, at the AMC La Jolla Theatres.
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